realization

A couple of months ago, I was hanging out in my local pub with some friends. We started talking to some women that were sitting next to us. After a couple of drinks and a lot of talking, one of the women asked me what I wanted to do for a living. And my reply was nothing. Which isn't exactly correct. So I elaborated, but she still thought that I wasn't telling what I wanted. So let me elaborate here.

What I want is a nice home on some land. I want to be able to live without working much. I want to read books and play video games all day long. Hang out with friends and family. And just live simply. I would not mind a small part time job with no obligations to the company. Just stocking shelves at a book store or something similar.

But today I noticed, there was something missing from my elaboration. I want something more. I want someone else there. I don't know who. I don't know anything about them except for one thing. Between them and I will be the emotion called love. It could be a man or a woman. I am open minded about love. But I want love, first and foremost in the relationship. Then I want other things. Children, great sex, loyalty, and fun.

I have not had the right relationship yet. Maybe I have met them, and it could be that I haven't entered the right relationship yet. We will find out in time. More later.